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Ode to a Loser

By James Thomas Shell

I do not present this as a plea for recognition, nor as a confession. It is a ledger entry—an honest account of a life that has unfolded along the edges, not out of aimlessness, but because the center never opened its doors.

Throughout my life, I have experienced a persistent sense of dislocation. Not disorientation—I understand the world around me—but disconnection. From a young age, I felt the weight of being out of place. My grandparents, all products of the Great Depression, were my refuge. They did not preach values; they lived them. Resilience, duty, and quiet endurance were their grammar of love. Through them, I was given a glimpse of steadiness. That steadiness did not last.

When they were gone—or overshadowed by the presence of those who lacked their depth—I came to understand what it meant to be truly alone. My mother and stepfather were not friendly. They were emotionally absent and controlling. They did not guide; they dominated. They did not care to understand; they imposed. From them, I learned early that survival often requires silence and adaptation.

I have carried that survival instinct into adulthood. I have sought connection—especially love—but repeatedly found myself misread, overlooked, or rejected. I offered sincerity, but sincerity, it seems, is not a currency many accept. I have not been respected or treated as respectable, and thus I did not have wealth or status to offer. I had honesty. And that, in most cases, is not enough.

There is a particular pain in being seen clearly by so few. I am not mysterious. I am not difficult to understand. But in a world preoccupied with surfaces, depth is often mistaken for distance. My intelligence has either not been accepted or it has been ignored or dismissed. By many, I have been, for no reason, reviled. My quietness is not apathy. My reserve is not arrogance. It is simply the consequence of years spent not being met where I stand.

Still, I remain committed to the work. Maybe these words I write will mean more when I am no longer here. I write. I document. I observe. There is rarely applause. Completion is followed not by celebration but by silence. The effort is real; the recognition, rare.

And yet, I continue. Not out of delusion or vanity, but out of principle. I do not believe in performance. I believe in memory. In bearing witness. In naming things as they are.

This is not a declaration of defeat, nor a call to arms. It is an acknowledgment: I exist in this middle place—shot, shattered, jaded, never triumphant. Simply present. Still moving forward.

If no one else will say it, I will: This, too, is a life. And it deserves to be recorded.

It is what it is.

And I am still here.

Reason in an Unreasonable World.

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I won’t be voicing the above. It’s too personal, and it is not meant for performance. That piece isn’t written to provoke sympathy or invite commentary—it is simply something I needed to put out there, a quiet truth, while I still can, to remove some of the darkness of my heart I have always had to hide. A clearing. A personal ledger. Just laying it out there so I can move forward with clarity. It is where I come from and who I am.

With that said, the mission continues.

This week, we return to the core mission: documenting the truth of Hickory’s condition and tracing the systems that shape daily life here—whether seen or ignored. Below are two major additions to the record:

Hickory 2025: 15 Segments That Tell the Whole Story (from the Compendium) - July 1, 2025 - This structured visual summary presents the full scope of Hickory’s current condition, drawn from the Compendium of Socio-Economic and Cultural Intelligence. Fifteen short segments trace the breakdown of systems across infrastructure, housing, public services, cultural identity, and more. Together, they form a civic mirror—one that speaks not just to where Hickory stands today, but to how it got here.

Deep Dive: Health Security in Hickory and Catawba County: Access, Aging, and the Health System - July 3, 2025 - This investigation examines the health care landscape across Hickory and Catawba County, with a focus on access, affordability, aging populations, and system strain. From ER bottlenecks to the realities of an under-supported elder care system, this deep dive exposes the quiet crisis shaping the region’s health security—and how close it is to the breaking point. ----------------------------------------

⚾ Hickory: This Is How Far You Are from Keeping the Crawdads

Before assuming everything’s fine, take a few minutes to watch this:
🎥 America’s Best Minor League Stadium?! | Stadium Wonders | Sports Illustrated

It features the Quad Cities River Bandits—a Class A franchise like our Hickory Crawdads. Their riverside ballpark was spared during MLB’s 2020 contraction effort and has since become a civic beacon. Their success wasn’t luck—it was intentional investment and community belief.

Meanwhile, the Crawdads are owned by Diamond Baseball Holdings, not the city or a local owner, meaning the team can be relocated if it remains undervalued mlb.com+15ballparkdigest.com+15en.wikipedia.org+15pitchbook.com+8milb.com+8baseball-reference.com+8. Because DBH is here for shareholder interest more than community interest.

Hickory, we’re behind. The stadium holds together, but we haven’t asked if Crawdads baseball still matters—or what we’re willing to do to keep it. And here’s the truth:

Hickory, you’re gonna need some Wow!!! factor.
You don’t need a glitzy waterfront complex. You need visible, consistent civic intent—something that says, this team isn’t expendable.

This isn’t about outdoing the River Bandits. It’s about understanding the gulf between a city that acted and one that’s still hesitant.

📘 Read more:
Keep the Crawdads: Strategic Intelligence Report
🎞️ Watch the series:
The Crawdad Reality – YouTube Shorts

No fireworks. No spin. Just a question:

Will Hickory decide the Crawdads stay—or quietly let them leave?

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And to wrap things up this week I want to post my promotional platforms. These are the outlets where I post and promote articles and content related to this community and this region.

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Main platform for longform reports, civic commentary, strategic briefs, and deep research on Hickory and Catawba County.

📡 The Hound’s Signal (Substack)

thehoundsignal.substack.com (<<< Linked)
Regional Substack blog expanding local content to the broader 20-county Foothills Corridor—published weekly with essays and signal reports.

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Hickory Hound on YouTube (<<< Linked)
Multimedia content, including narrated shorts, series like The Crawdad Reality, and video briefings tied to the Compendium and civic reports. I get many video views here that aren’t reflected in the numbers, because when you open a video outside of Youtube’s ecosystem it does not count in the video totals listed on Youtube.

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The Hickory Hound Facebook Group

Hickory NC Town Talk